I've been perfectly content with our decision to wait and find out the gender once the baby is born... up until recently. Now, with less than 6 weeks to go, I'm feeling slightly unprepared! We don't have a name picked out, Gabriella is still sleeping in the crib, we don't have the baby's room organized (mostly because the baby's big sister is still in that room...), etc. Jordan is absolutely convinced this baby is a girl... he won't really even talk about boy names or boy things because he's so sure of himself. (For the record: Jordan has predicted the gender of our first two children and been correct both times)
I did go through Gabriella's newborn clothes this past weekend and realized there were like 10 onesies that she never even wore! I picked out a few things just in case the baby is a girl and so far I only have one boy outfit in case it's a boy. And with those outfits I started packing my hospital bag! I realize I still have over 5 weeks before my due date, but I might as well get that out of the way now. Since this is my third time around I know what I want to take and so I might as well get in the bag. :)
I had my 34 week appointment last Friday. I have officially hit the 30 pound mark. If I keep gaining only one pound a week I'll have gained 35/6ish pounds. So I'm pretty pleased with myself so far. I was nervous I'd put on a lot of weight since I'm not walking as much as I did with Gabri, I guess chasing around two toddlers all day is helping. My next appointment is at 36 weeks and then I'll be visiting my dr. every week until the baby is born. I was surprised to find out that they'll start checking to see if I've dilated or if my cervix is thinning at 36 weeks, since my last doctor didn't check until 38 weeks. I'm really interested to see if I have started dilating yet. The baby has really dropped this last week. I am feeling the pressure of the baby's head in my pelvic area a lot more. I'm hoping that could be a sign of going into labor early... but I doubt it!
Last night Jordan and I started discussing what our "PLAN" is for if I go into labor naturally. My biggest concern is that he's going to be at work and I'm going to go into labor and have both the kids with me... by myself. I have some pretty awesome neighbors that would gladly help me out with anything I need... but what if they're off on a camping trip in the mountains?! Since they did plan this trip for the week of my due date...eh hem!! (just kidding, Tirz!) We live 20 miles away from the hospital and unless we take the toll road it takes 30 minutes to get there... I do NOT want to have to make that drive while in labor! I'm already cranky in the car when I'm having braxton hicks, and those aren't even painful most of the time!
Having a new baby is so scary because of all the unknowns. I wonder how Gabriella will deal with not being the baby anymore. I wonder how Jayden will handle having another baby in the house. Will I be able to breastfeed this baby with as much success as I had with Gabriella? How long it will take before I start getting sleep again? Will having 3 children all under the age of 3 be too much for me to handle? I've been learning to trust God in the area of motherhood. Everyday I wake up and I say, "God is my help and my strength", otherwise I might lose it at any given moment. I will just have to trust Him that this baby will come at the perfect time and no matter what the situation is, He's with me.
This is so good. It's interesting how in each of our lives there are opportunities to learn to trust God. When things don't go like we plan, He still loves us and is there to help us.
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